Erh...it's rainin right now and I'm kinda like home alone. Listening to Pink right now. Okae...it's changed to MCR's demolition lovers. hah the lyrics are my blogskin. XD. can ya'll tag please?? Thx.
I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets... aww. This song was about Gerard's then girlfriend. It makes me sad coz it makes me think of long and winding paths through a desert... (as snow falls on desert sky) and a guy in the middle who can't find his way home.

I just saw this picture while crawling thru gerard's pics... andI stumbled upon a picture... it was a picture of a guy sitting on a log, his hands running through his hair, a misty forest in the background, and water below. I was so enthralled by it, I stared at it for 1/2 an hour. Then I scrolled down and realized that this moving picture was drawn by Gerard Way. I was like, OMG. This picture ws so COOL. Then I studied the pic more carefully. The guy...he looked like Gerard when he was younger, with neck-length black hair. I saw what lay in the water. Monsters...creatures... of what haunted him. Me and Gerard share the same passion in drawing.
O yea today during Maths I fell asleep. Then I had a disturbing dream, which was quite...disturbing. If you saw me, I was breathing kinda heavily. My head was aching beacause I was breathing too much. Try it. try taking breaths in short gasps. Yeah that's how I felt. i dreamt that I was being drowned. I saw blue...blue...everywhere. I didn't feel fear tho. Darkness surrounded me. Suffocating... I've never felt afraid of darkness. My mom used to be worried abt me when i was young coz I never liked to switch on lights. i slept in darkness, moved in darkness. My mom called me 'abnormal' coz most kids at 6 would naturally be afraid of the dark. Now my mom like, scolds me whenever I don't switch on lights wherever I go. Ask siaw ee. i don't like lights on. HAHAHAHA. That time i would study in darkness, illuminated only by my handphone light or something. I LOVED to study with a flashlight. HAHAHA.

So after Maths, i woke up and saw gerard standing at the door. jade was trying to catch my attention. XD. he was asking me to come outside, so i did. And saw the counsellor. OH NO I forgot there was sex ed. Shit.

Oh yeah...feeling kinda strange right now. My mom and dad just had a fight. I'm not close to my mom. Duh. Would you if you've been dumped at your grandma's place for the first 5 years of your life?? Well. I'm kinda used to their stupid silly fights. That time my mom took away my dad's phone coz she tot he was having an affair. So my dad naturally wanted it back. It became a full-fledged fight, my dad began twisting my mom's arm and she was crying. I became so used to their fights already. And I was only p2 or 3. So used that when my mom asked for help, I laughed at her. I just started laughing and pointing at them. Then I took the phone and called my friend to know what homework there was. She asked me why there were screams in the background. I said that there were two dogs outside my house which were fighting. Then started laughing gleefully.

Then there was another fight that took place in the middle of a road. They were fighting in the car, so my dad stopped it and we almost had an accident. We moved into a more deserted space and they got out of the car and started shouting at each other. I was kinda fed up that day, and this was just pushing the limit. So I yelled, at 12 o'clock midnight, in some godforsaken place, "SHUT THE BLOODY HELL UP!!!!!"

Haha. They were stunned for a while. Then they began shouting again. I've had it. So I took my shoes off and hurled it at my mom and dad.Hit my dad, but not mom. Oops. big mistake. But I didn't care. My parents got into the car and started scolding me. Oh so I was the cause. But I remained calm and rebutted something like "Yea. But if you two were out there making bloody fools out of yourselves a responsible person ought to break you up."haha. Finally, fed up with my calmness, my dad told me to SHUT THE HELL UP. i think he wanted to slap me but i moved out of the way. Tears burned behind my lashes but I hid them. So when the car was still moving, I just opened the door and stumbled out. I think they tried to go after me but i ran. Got a taxi, went to the place i called home.

don't get me wrong. My parents love each other. It's just that...they brought me up the wrong way. And my mom practices favoritism. She told my bro in front of me once "Don't grow up to be like ur sister" EEE. I think they pretty much gave up hope on me. So yeah... when my mom had a fight yesterday about something that was quite important, I din't interrupt. But it was hard not to when ur parents are talking about how they don't trust me, and that I wasn't close to them. After that, my mom asked i fI wanted to go and eat out. I felt bitchy, so I said "Who are you?" And left. HAHAHA.

Okay my mom will be here soon. Holds a blade, knife and a pin. But no, not for her.