I found myself listening to PussycatDolls for some weird reason. BEEP.

Anyway... Sharon and Jasmine are the two most sweetest GIRLFRIENDS a girl could ever have!!! I am so lucky to be their friend. Sharon's really outgoing and fun, and she's a strong girl who can take my pissed-off days (the days when I'm spouting bad words like poetry and bitching at everyone and everything without meaning to-a lot of ppl keep away from me when I'm in those moods, which is a huge mistake) and she is very open-minded. Jasmine can make me laugh anytime, anywhere, and her antics are so effing funny. Plus she writes super-entertaining leters. Jasmine is very dramatic and she's open-minded too. Thank GOD I'll have these two gals in my class next year..(dep) oh yeah...and natalie too. Ah Natalie enetertains me. HAha if she were to read this entry she'll kill me.

Oh yeah, Drama helps me alot coz we like to bitch. Releases my stress. Bonds us together. It's not like we're bitchy ppl or anything, it's just we Drama ppl speak a language of our own. When we're pissed, it takes a lot of willpower to not scream at the person right in front of us. even if they were our friends or something. Very few un-dramaians can take the rattle and anger from a dramaian. Majority get hurt by our words. When we dramaians get pissed, we say a lot of things we don't mean to.My darlings, that's why we're called actresses. We hide our feelings from the world. Then during Drama, we just shout "I HATE HER!!!" And none of us will ever feel hurt by anything the other person says.

I dunno if you understand what I'm trying to say... But nevermind. I'm not a very good actress. People can read my feelings, then they stay away from me. Which uh.... angers me more. You see, without Drama, I'll have a lot of feelings bottled up in me. I do have a lot of secrets that will probably juice up the papparazzi for centuries, but I...am.....trying....to.....hide...it.....

MAybe I'll tell sharon and Jas one day. They will understand. Actually they have brushed off a layer of me. They have fished me out from my fake facade that I wear most of the time. Um....you want proof??? I'm more myself around Siaw Ee, Sharon and Jasmine. If you don't believe me, try hanging around me when I'm hanging out with them. With Siaw ee, I tend to use a lot of bad words. And we zone out a lot. Like, we'll say really weird stuff. We live in a part-imaginary world. But I belong there. When I'm with Sharon and Jasmine, I am more sincere in what I do. Coz they're my friends and respect my decision. They share a lot of my feelings too, and we don't have to hide anything when we're together.

This time, I promise that I will never lose them. I promise myself that noone will ever betray me again. And remember that time when gerard helped me with my history test and said I'd get between 8 to ten?? (it's one of the earlier blog entries) Guess what? I got 9! Now do you believe that Gerard is very real in my world? I love GEE!!!

OH YEAH...I'm starting a list of ppl I'd like to thank this week:

-AMEERA (long time ago, for the MCR poster)
-SHARON AND JASMINE (for planning a surprise birthday party--which isn't a surprise anymore XD)
-ELIZABETH AND MARIE (for helping me out in my academics)
-DANICA AND JACQUELINE (for entertaining me with their trailer and dramatic characters)
-SHARON AND JASMINE (for the wonderful letters!)
-GERARD WAY (for predicting my marks correctly and helping me achieve it!)
-MY DAD (for offering me a concert ticket and backstage pass for MCR's rumored concert)
-MY DAD (for offering me a concert ticket and backstage pass for MCR's rumored concert)
-MY DAD (for offering me a concert ticket and backstage pass for MCR's rumored concert)
-MY DAD (for offering me a concert ticket and backstage pass for MCR's rumored concert)
-MY DAD (for offering me a concert ticket and backstage pass for MCR's rumored concert)
-MY DAD (for offering me a concert ticket and backstage pass for MCR's rumored concert)

Ok enough.

To end it off, I just had a disturbing dream last night...about this Malay old guy who raped and killed his three daughters. And they were begging me for help. EH??

BYE THEN!!!