Hey guys!!!

It's been a while since I'd posted...and I want to thank all of you ppl for making my day!!!

I LOVE my new skin. Seriously.Pirates of the caribbean opens on 24th May...MY B'DAE! My dad has promised to bring me to the screens that day. If there are tickets left.

Erm...I've fallen in love with Evanescence: Sweet Sacrifice and Linkin Park: What I've Done. Especially Sweet Sacrifice. I love this phrase from the song:

"I dream in the darkness; I sleep to die; Erase the silence; Erase my life."

Nice, huh? Oh yeah, and I have promised not to bitch about her anymore. i think most of you know who i'm talking about. She's just not worth my time. Although keeping quiet is proving more difficult than ever. It's the kind of time when a girl needs her friends' support. Sharon is really sweet. We may have our run-ins every now and then, but I think it makes our friendship stronger. We each have our ego and we protect it. I'm not the kind of girl who would say sorry for a major thing. I'm very proud. It's called a weakness. Everyone has their own.

But at a last attempt, I would like to dedicate a song to the person who has made me suffer in silence.

"One day, I'm gonna forget your name;
One sweet day, you're gonna drown in my lost pain;
You poor, sweet innocent thing;
Dry your eyes, and testify;
You know you live to break me; don't deny;
Sweet Sacrifice
Fear is only in our minds, taking over all the time;
Fear is only in our minds but is taking over all the time;
You poor sweet innocent thing;
Dry your eyes, and testify;
And oh, you love to hate me, don't you, honey?
I'm your sacrifice
(I dream in the darkness;
I sleep to die;
Erase the silence; Erase my life)
Do you wonder why you hate?
Are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?
You poor, sweet innocent thing;
Dry your eyes, and testify;
You know you live to break me; Don't deny,
Sweet Sacrifice."

Ah. I feel so much better now.

Check out their vid. It's mind-blowing.

I had this dream a few days back. I lived in a mansion with my family and all. Then, one day, one by one, all of them mysteriously died. I was pretty spooked. But I didn't feel sad. so I called up a couple of friends. HAha. I think someone said that it was a witch or ghost, someone who had suffered in their life and was now seeking revenge. And she needed one more victim -- me. So me and the class prepared to fight this witch/ghost, and then she appeared. She looked vaguely familiar to me, but I couldn't really see her because I was shielded by Jacqueline, Kristen and a few others. They were protecting me! Aww. Clarissa, Zi Ying, Siaw ee mysteriously disappeared and lots more. They had spears and everything. But the witch was laughing and was invincible.

Soon, those protecting me had to desert me to fight the witch. But as I came into close contact with the raging fight, I came to realize that I had to fight her myself. (Hero moment here-dramatic music please!) So I took a really sharp pen, (a pen?) and stabbed her back. The blue ink, combined with the redness of her blood, made a messy purple pool on the cement floor. And as she turned around in shock, I stumbled back. The witch I had killed--it was ME!! I had killed myself. Then I woke up.

But as I sat up in my bed, at 4 am in the morning, I began to put the pieces of my dream together. The witch had represented the fears and wrongdoings in my life, my obsession with revenge, and my obsession with ppl who have made me angry.It had claimed lives...which meant that it has afffected the way ppl look at me now. So I thought about those who have protected me. Those who have fought for my sake. It then dawned on me. It was my mind's subconcious way of telling me that yes, I do have friends that look after me and still care for me. I'm not alone.

And it was the first time I actually got something good out of a nightmare. It was also the first time I could go back to sleep after a dream like that.


I LOVE ALL YOU GUYS!!!!!! And yeah, gerard was right about something--- Clarissa has turned out to be a significant person in my life. (Haha shall not tell her how) YEAH GERARD!!!! LOVE YOU TOO!!!

Bye then. Comrades. XD