I think everyone really underestimates the love I have for My Chemical Romance.

I discovered the band when I was in primary 5 or 6.... the Helena video. That was a massacre. And at that time, mind you, I was a punk rock hater and the 'OMGIlOVeHilaryDuffAndLIndsAYLohan' kind of person. But the video really touched my heart. I really really really liked their video and song, even though I tried to convince myself that I hate MCR just like any other wannabe rock band. But a few weeks down the road, I was proved wrong.

The ghost of you.

I loved the video so much I began to obsess about it. I told my friends all about my increasing interest in the band, and they would call me loyally whenever there was the MCR video playing on MTV. and thus, one thing lead to another, and I began extensive research on the band members.

So, well, after learning their names and all, the band chose that moment to lie low. I was just beginning to think that they were gone from the scene when... TADA!

WELCOME TO THE BLACK PARADE.

I swear I fell in love with the band AGAIN, and this time I became a die-hard fan. I was so mentally in love with them...and I have to admit, I was at that stage of time where the very mention of MCR would send me reeling from the real world. I, just like any other teenage girl, went through a crush phase on them. It lasted for quite a while...I think you guys have seen me at my very worst moments squealing 'OMGOMGMCRMCR' over and over again.But as I began to listen to more of their songs, I unknowingly began to build a relationship with them.

This band that I've never met before, never seen face-to-face, never talked to before, and I was beginning to go deeper than love. Is it even possible for any person to make others fall in love with them time and time again every time you listen to a new song?

No one except for MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. I especially like Gerard, coz his voice was the first thing I noticed about the band. Now, whenever I listen to his songs, I begin to appreciate them more.

I find different meanings everytime I listen to the same song. It just...cuts you deep, down inside. And his voice is PERFECT, for me. I love him so much.

And thus the imaginary Gerard was created. He never seems INVISIBLE to me, he's always there, and he just appears so ethereal, sometimes even I wonder if he's human. Do you want to know why My Chemical Romance is a hit for ppl to write fanfics? the same reason why you like to fall in love with fictional characters in books. BECAUSE THEY CAN NEVER HURT YOU.

Gerard will never hurt me, and I won't hurt him either.

You guys will never NEVER understand my love for MCR, and call me mental for dreaming that they're always by my side, but when I hurt in the middle of the night, Gerard is the one who murmurs soothing words that seem to have come from the band's songs, and when my left hand spasms with the pain of yesterday, the beating of his heart is the one that takes it away, the rhythm of his heart eerily familiar to the drums in their songs. Who was the person who taught me how to channel my anger into something better? It was Gerard, whose magical,powerful voice reaching into the deep void beneath me.

IT WAS GERARD, AND WILL ALWAYS BE.

I love MCR, and I really do love them. It's not some sort of weird 'he'ssohot' kinda thing (which I kmow most of you have over bands like fahrenheit-sorry) Being hot is a bonus,. I fell in love with the voice and the beat, the lyrics before I looked at the MAN.

MY LOVE FOR THEM WILL STAY ON FOREVER.

Even when they grow old and have children and die, I will still remember them as my eternal saviors, my ticket to heaven- in the middle of hell.


I love them.

Truly I do.

If I die without telling them this... tell it for me.

Thanks.

Love you.