HAHA! Funny.

But anyway.... Yesterday was September 11. Eleven is lucky. Eleven is me. I like Eleven. And that was probably why I had so much insight with my life yesterday.

Every single thing I saw or touched would suddenly scream life lessons at me. I dunno why.

1.CLOUDS
When I was on my way to school, I noticed that the clouds on the left side of the car were black, dark, while the front and the right side were completely clear and blue. I instinctively thought that a storm would be brewing, and snagged my brother's shirt from the car seat to use as a jacket. After a while, my parents started feeling cold, and looked around for some kind of clothing to wrap themselves in. But I've already taken the shirt. Heheh. My mom was like, "How did you know it was going to get cold?" And I said, "Coz I looked the other way." And at that exact same moment I realized how true my words were.

In life, you'd have to look in EVERY SINGLE DIRECTION. When you make friends, ask yourself, "What is this friend capable of doing? Can I trust her? WHat could she do to ruin my life?" and you have to ask yourself this, too, "What do I like about her? What does she like about me?" Look in all directions. This could help a lot, especially with friends who are high-maintenance and make you feel like slapping them over and over again sometimes. But deep down inside, she could be a good friend. Look in all directions before you make a decision. Will it benefit you more than it will make you regret?

2.LEAVES
Yes, I know. Leaves. So on the way to school, it was just starting to rain, and the wind was lashing at the earth mersilessly. I looked at the waterfall of leaves cascading down to the road, and watched it get squashed over and over again by passing motorists. And I had another wonderful insight.

In life, (haha) we are a lot like leaves. We will fall off the branch one day, at the right moment, but it has to be YOUR CHOICE. If you hold on too long, too much, fate will come in and break you away, bringing you down with nothing left. Must we all wait for the cruel rain and wind in our lives to bring us down? If you CHOOSE to let go and be independent, the slight breeze will take you away to land on a soft spot on the ground. But if you were to wait for the rain, it will shake you off your branch, drown you, laden you with the burden of water until you lie sodden, on the road. And then a car will run over you. Heheh. CHOOSE to let go. Don't wait for others to tear you away cruelly. That way you won't get hurt much.

Okay. Think I'll stop. There were many others...of coz.... like the handphone incident...

But I'd like to thank MCR again. And Siaw EE. For letting me listen to their beautiful first album. Because, in truth, I now realize that by listening to MCR at least two hours a day, their words and advice hidden in their sons get drilled into my head, and that prepares me. Like the time when my great-grandma died, I was expecting to turn into a water hose, but I didn't. In fact, I learned a lot from her death. And I realize that MCR has taught me for this day, preparing me. After listening to MCR, I DO think about death more, but not in the emo way. I ask myself how I would cope with life if any of you were to pass on. And that way, I appreciate you guys more. I'm more patient now. Yes, I have imagined life without each one of you at least once. Trust me, a lot of tears were shed. But I pick myself up, and move on. That way, when the real day approaches, I am strong.

I love all you guys, and the holidays has made me really happy, in ways I don't understand. But I am, and i hope you all will be able to see that. ;)

With lots of love,
Nisa.

(P.s: Hope my advice helps! Not trying to be a life guru, but I'd like to share my knowledge.XD.)